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watcha doing? wanna meet billy?
billy is my baby right now, she is the main chara in the graphic novel im working on

Full Name: Insebill Köhlwitz

Other names: she mainly goes by Billy, because she hates the name that was given to her.
Her Boyfriend sometimes calls her by her full name or Inse to annoy her. His pet name for her is bean, since she has a obsession with jelly beans.

Age: 23

Weight: fluctuates between 65 and 75kgs (65 kg on the full body sketch)

Height: 165cm

Hobbys: writing prosa and poems, watching series and cartoons, reading books, comics and mangas

Sexuality: Bisexual. Billy is a very sexual person and doesn't need to fall in love with someone to have sex with them, but needs at least a friendship between her and the other person. She prefers sex with penetration and is therefore slightly biased towards men. 

Love interest: She loves her boyfriend (didn't came up with the right name jet. He goes by the Name Leon by now but I'm not happy with that) and is very fixated on him. They came together roughly a half year ago, after being best friends with ...special benefits for two years. 

positive personality traits: she is outgoing and open, very generous, even with strangers and usually a nice person with a dorky and independent personality. She is very open minded and often succeeds to overcome emotional problems trough logical thinking. Billy is very intelligent and creative and has a great sense of humor. She can give great advice and loves to help friends in need (but struggles to help herself and usually never asks for help from anyone). She is very brave when facing stranger-danger or aggressiveness towards her or the people she loves.

negative personality traits: she can be very manipulative when she is angry with someone, but usually double checks every wish for help or concern and often ends up with being silent in fear of being manipulative like she used to be. This eating up of all her fear and anger often makes her explode or being unfairly cold and hurtful towards people she loves. She still lives by a very risky lifestyle. She smokes, drinks and likes to ignore deadlines or payments, often finishing her stuff last minute. She spends money like the month were a week long and ends up being broke around the 15th. Billy never thinks of the consequences till she has to face them, but won't ask for help either. Despite this she could keep the facade of a balanced lifestyle for years.      

Likes: Jelly Beans, her Boyfriendo, good music (bands like yellocard, sugarcult and angels and airwaves would be her favorites), italian and asian food, writing all night on poems or storys, certain poets and writers, wearing cozy cloths in cold rooms, mixing wine and fruit juice, being liked by cute animals, animals in general, calling dogs 'doggo' or 'pupper', acting like a kitty or little girl around boyfriendo, baking cookies, cold but sunny days, being by herself in the 'Faust' (her favorite café), punny jokes, the smell of burned sugar beets (the city she lives in is famous for it's sugar production), silly kids cartoons (she would love things like adventure time or mlp), hot showers, insulting people with funny swear words, being needed
PSSST... I made a Pinterest Board for things Billy likes and finds pretty or funny: de.pinterest.com/melaniespecht…

Hates: her real name, when owners won't let her pet their dogs, having to get to work, having to share food, promising songs that don't build up 'the feeling', people who don't question their opinions, people who text her all the time, people who can't use grammar, people who use facebook like a newspaper, 80% of people maybe, people with a victim mentality, her hair, being criticised for her messy room, her body, her scars

Fears: never being good enough, being rejected, being abandoned, being manipulative, losing boyfriendo, smelling bad


Influences and inspiration: to be honest; Billys background story, personality and style are very influenced by myself. There are mayor differences for the sake of the story (and myself) and I don't want to write a fanfiction about my life (but you can do that if you like, plz ship me with keanu reeves ok). I wanted to write a story that depicts mental illness in a way that shows the destruction of someones life, personality and their loved ones in a extreme way, basing her around myself gave me the best way to display this. I'm not in a place that is slightly as black as Billys but it is easier to think 'how would I react' than 'how would [very different character] react?'.
Her body shape and features are based on Nadia Aboulhosn, a plus size fashion blogger that I adore for her looks. (Visit her website, she is serious eyecandy: www.nadiaaboulhosn.com/ )
 
Family Relations: Mother - goes by Mama, Father - goes by Paps, Brother - Paul (19 years old), Grandmother - goes by Omi.
The Köhlwitz' struggle to live through agriculture and minijobbing. They have a small farm in a tiny but beautiful village. Her Brother wants to start a career as engineer and always was a quite good student and very focused on his goals. Billy and him got along well in their childhood, but grew distant over the years due to their differences in interests and personality.
Her family isn't very present in her life since she moved to a city that is very distant to her families home. She moved out when she started a internship at a well-respected magazine and was relived to get away from her family. Her risky and rebellious lifestyle and ongoing mental health struggles made it hard to get along for them. Although she loves her family and they love her, they seem to be to different to share a roof but they get along fine when she makes short visits, calls or texts her peers. Her Grandmother loves her unconditionally and often supports her financially with her savings, which makes Billy feel like a piece of shit for taking it.

Childhood: Billy never had much friends and got bullied often in her childhood. She was a very overweight child, teachers pet and often ahead of her classes. This and her awkwardness made her the fifth wheel around her small circle of friends and a victim of bulling. It wasn't that bad, she never got physically hurt, but the mean jokes and distant classmates made her close up to others. Even when she got more accepting and nice classmates she would create the distance unintentionally herself due to her fright to be laughed at or annoy the other students. she found her safe haven in books and mangas and started to draw and write herself. Her teacher was very fond of her assigned short stories and encouraged her to improve her writing skills. By the age of 13 she already won some awards for her short stories.

Teenage Years and early Adulthood: Around the age of 15 she had enough of being [like this] and started to change her personality. She went trough the awkward emo phase, dressed very edgy, told her classmates she worshiped Cthulhu, had a demon inside of her right hand and other weird things to make fun of her role as a outsider and control the rumors and negative attention about herself. Making up that weird persona helped her in a very unusual way, acting like this really gave her more confidence, she could conceal her real struggles better and secretly could make fun of the people that talked about her made up weirdness behind her back. Some people who bullied her actually feared her now. That was a plus too. She found her niche around some misfits, goths, punks and otakus who thought she was a legit 'mysterious 'n edgy' gurl. When she would talk about it it today she would explain it as a ironic statement and 24/7 method acting, but to be honest: in that days she thought was she did was very cool and much less ironic than she would admit. 
She seemed very (almost too) confident around that age, but secretly struggled with self hate, started to cut herself and starved or threw up after meals to get rid of her 'disgusting' (as she would describe it) figure. She also got angry very fast, manipulative and made irrational and risky choices like crossing streets while cars where rushing by and driving recklessly on her little scooter. She actually started to plan her suicide, but also tried to die 'casually' by being reckless.
Her parents were very concerned and made her see a counselor who diagnosed her with depression, a unclassified eating disorder (EDNOS) and also a tendency to boderline personality at the age of 17. Her counselor could help her to deal with her issues and made her take meds but had the feeling of growing to attached to her after years of counseling. He finally decided to pass her on to a new counselor. Billy loved and trusted her old counselor and felt like he wouldn't want to see her anymore because she 'complained too much'. This made her start to conceal her problems and trying to be act independent in fear of losing people for being 'a self pitting loser'.
After a few years of therapy with the new counselor she still dealt with that problems but could cope with her problems better and stopped to hurt or starve herself. Her personality was still pretty outgoing, but she was much calmer and learned to appear more professional and sophisticated at school or work while still being kind of more lovable misfit around family and friends. She finished school with very good grades and got accepted for a internship and later apprenticeship at a popular magazine. In all that difficult time she never stopped to work on her writing (which helped her cope and express her feelings and wishes) and could improve massively. She always kept her circle of friends very small but felt more like an equal part around them.

Life in the City: After getting the paid internship when she was 20 she quickly found a place to live in, a 13qm room in a shitty flat she shares with a few people. She wanted to move a few times but never could afford a better place. Boyfriendo is a local she met in the 'faust' and was the first person she befriended in the city. The internship went that good, that billy was offered a place apprentice after a year. The people there were very fond of her writing skills and her quirky personality.
Roughly a year before the story of the comic starts she stops taking her meds, because she thinks she is stable enough. From there one everything goes down very slowly, despite being unnoticed for a long time. Slowly but steady her carelessness increases, she gets more impulsive and develops the habit to oversleep. She get's depressed and can't motivate herself to do anything, get's sloppy and easily annoyed. Of course this won't go unnoticed by her working place and after she didn't show up to work at all for a few days her boss is fed up with her.
The comic will start by Billy waking up at noon to a text from her boss who tells her she can't work for him but wishing her the best of luck and hopes she seeks help. She has a breakdown and finally reaches out for help by her boyfriend. He does the best to help her, bringing food over, cooking, helping her to clean and cheering her up, but he can't stop the thoughts that are running in her head. Billy can't find a job and refuses to ask her family for money, so she soon starves while applying to jobs and collecting bottles to buy some food that the fridge of her boyfriend parents can't provide. One day in her nearest supermarket she is tempted to take jelly beans with her, despite having no money to buy them. She steals the beanz without being caught - she is well known there for her massive food quantities and was always nice and respectful, so why would she? Billy had never stolen and she felt like she lost her last bit of value as a person. She eats them despite being angry at herself and gets a visit from her boyfriend who decides to spend the night at her place.
At night she wakes up to her boyfriend screaming. She realized she levitated while dreaming and falls hard back on her bed. Despite her boyfriend freaking out... for the first time in days, she feels kind of good.
Soon Billy will discover more unusual powers. Sorry, this isn't the story of a superhero or a villain. This is the story about a girl that loses herself in her madness, a lover that starts to fear her and the question where to decide between a personality and an illness.


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This was long. Sorry for any misspellings and grammar failures, english isn't my native language.
Sorry for not touching the plot at all, but i really don't want to spoil everything. Everything that was barely touched in this bio will be explained in the comic, further bios, character sheets and stuff. I'm not very pleased with this, so if you have ideas how I could improve her, please tell me!

♥ THANKS FOR READING THIS ALL I LOVE YOU HUMAN PERSON ♥